We have made it to the 2nd trimester. You are officially 1/3 of the way through the baking process,
The chances of us getting to bring you home once you've passed the 1st trimester are very promising, especially since we've heard your heart beat and gotten a chance to see you.
If you're reading this someday, clearly, you finished baking with success!
Guess what? Last night I even got to feel you move! I've thought I may have been feeling you move from time to time for the past two weeks but I wasn't positive, and that would definitely be on the early side. Last night though, I felt something funny just to the right of my tummy below my belly button. A few minutes later I felt it again. It must be you dancing and rolling and playing around! I went out to tell your daddy and he put his hand on my tummy and swore he felt you too. I told him it was too early for him to be able to feel it from the outside, but he insists that he did, so I won't argue!
Let me tell you a little bit about the last few months. It's been a doozy, but oh-so worth it.
About a week after I found out I was expecting you I got the 'pleasure' of getting sick and throwing up often. I say 'pleasure' because it was a constant reminder that you were doing well and getting what you needed to be healthy. I put quotes around it because throwing up is not the least bit pleasurable.
But at this point I haven't thrown up much in the past week and I feel increasingly human by the day. I am celebrating that both you and I made it through these past few months!
So yes, I've had the customary nausea and vomiting, but I've also had some other symptoms that you might find hilarious someday. I didn't find them hilarious a few weeks ago, but even now I can find some humor in some of them.
Here are some of the things that have given me a really hard time:
- The smell of bread toasting
- The smell of red onions
- The smell of the drapes in my house
- The smell of bathrooms
- The smell of breath
- The smell of my hair after I've flat ironed it (even 12 hours later!)
- The smell of my closet
- The smell of hot foods
- The sight of various foods for any number of reasons
- The taste of my own mouth (yeah, that was fun!)
- The feeling of a toothbrush in my mouth (which is not good considering the point above)
- The feeling of being touched (I am always HOT, and touch only makes it worse)
- The sun (see above)
- Getting into a hot car (see above)
- Taking a warm shower (see above)
- Waking up and opening my eyes before eating something
- Loud noises
- Flickering lights
As a bonus, I pretty much spent two whole months asleep. I wish I were joking. Most days, if given the opportunity, I would wake up and eat then go back to bed. Then wake up and eat and take a nap, or lay down and watch Call the Midwife on Netflix. Then I'd eat and then sleep for a few hours in the afternoon. Then I would wake up and eat and try to stay awake a few hours. Then I would fall asleep again somewhere in the 8-9 o'clock range, usually while watching another episode. I can literally think of only a few tangible things I've accomplished over the past couple of months, unless you count watching an entire t.v. series.
However, what I have been accomplishing is pretty remarkable. I'm growing a human!
And for that, I continue to be oh-so grateful. In the moment these last two months have almost felt unbearable at some points. However, I am beginning to see light at the end of the tunnel, and day by day I'm getting more and more excited about your impending arrival. I am fully aware of the blessing that you are, and I am tickled that I'm getting a chance to know you more and more each day!
I love you Little One!